My boyfriend's name is Billy Diaz. Me and him have been going out on and
off since June 2001. He is 16 years old right now. I am 17 right now. I met him when he was riding around on his bike in my
apartments. We first got together after my dorky friend Andrea shot a 4 year old kid with a small rocket firework. She is
the one that caused the cops to come to my house that night. She was to afraid to stay at my house after that so she took
off running for her house. (STUPID CHICKEN!!!!!) When the cops came that night, Billy got blamed for it. I told the cops that
it wasn't him, but of course who are they gonna beleive? Not me no way only the people that called.. Go figure. Dumb pigs!!!
After that me and Billy have gotten really close. At first I didn't know what he wanted me for. I wasn't sure if he was one
of those guys that wanted sex or a real relationship. At first I think that he wanted sex, but now sice I have shown him that
sex is not something I want right now, he has been liking me for me. We have done almost everything together. There was a
time when we both had thought that we had broken up. I had been at camp and he thought that I left him and when I got back
he would seem strange like he wasn't interested if I even saw him after camp and before school. I don't remember. Those were
not good times. But now we are going back out and I could never be happier. I love him. He is my best friend. He is the guy
I love. He is the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with.
He asked me to marry him tonight, of course I said
yes. I honestly do want to marry him. I love him. Its been about 5 months that we have been going out. I have noticed that
I am somewhat insecure about this relationship. He has fallen for about 3 other girls and has tried to go out with them or
do other stuff with them. I don't know if it is me or what. I am guessing I did something to him to upset him. I don't know
what that would be. I wish I knew. He also has said that he was a christian but now I am not so sure. One night he goes to
church and the next he wants to go to the store for wiccan things. I just don't get it. Had I forgotten to tell you that he
smokes and he has asthma? Oh and there is a good chance of him being drafted since his friend lives on base and told him that
his name was in the drafting book for next year. So fat everything is crashing down to the ground now. I love him yet I am
gonna loose him if I am not careful. I fear that the most right now. I will die if I go through one full day with out seeing
him. I love him so incredibly much. He is like air to me now, I can't live with out him. Well life went on as we all know.
Eventually Billy did leave me for good. Me and him have been split for about 3-4 months now. I have moved on since him.
I went back to Magoos one last time since we have broken up. It was so hard. I just couldn't stay there. I left and went
home.
After that the greatest thing happened. Kenny Anderson Jr. The one that I used to work at McDonalds
with called me up at home and talked to me for a little while. By the end of that conversation we were going out. At first
I was a little nervous. I did the most stupidest thing I could possibly do. I took him to Melissa's house. When I was there
I gave Melissa permission to flirt hardcore with Kenny. Little did I know then how much he was going to mean to me. I didn't
have any clue of what I was getting myself into. I thought that I was too scared to let myself fall in love again. I was wrong.
After the first couple of weeks I had fallen head over feet for him. I also had noticed that he kept on going over to Melissa's
house. From that point I was scared that Melissa was going to screw up my relationship. Well I guess I was right. Kenny dumped
me because he was scared to "get attached" to me and told me it was over the first time. After he dumped me he started going
out with Melissa. I was hurt. I started crying because Kenny didn't want to be with me. When he broke up with me he told me
that he still cared about me and that he would always have a place for me in his heart. That just made me realize how
much I care about him and made me fall in love with him even more. That wasn't the greatest thing, but oh well. And ya
know the thing is he still came everyday to see me which in a way was cool, but it made me forget that we were broken up half
the time. I eventually after a few days got that through my thick skull that it was over. Then thats when I heard he was with
Melissa. That hurt me even more. After that I heard that Melissa had asked him to Prom. A few days after that over at Brandy's
he asked me back out. I was so excited. Kenny wanted to be with me. He told me that he wasn't going to break up with Melissa
till Prom was over because she had bought him everything.. Like rented the suit, the tickets and all that. He had promised
me that it would end after Prom. Well a night or two before that I had been over at Andrea's house with Billy, Andrea, and
this other guy that I sort of knew named Jon. Well lets just say that, that night turned out to be a mistake. I made out with
Jon. But the thing is that Jon pulled all the moves first. I don't know why. But in any case what I did was cheating on Kenny.
That is something that his ex-wife did to him alot so at first I was scared to tell him. Then like a day after Prom me and
Kenny were at Brandy's and then she made me tell him. She said "If you want to have a relationship that will work you have
to be honest with him." So I was honest with him and told him. At first he told me that he was upset but he would get over
it. Later on that day he ended up dumping me for the second time. That was actually the last time too. He never broke up with
Melissa and he is still with her now. Its been about 2 months since we went out and I am still trying to get over him. It
doesn't help when I see him everyday though. I can't help it I still love him so much. It hurts so bad to see him still with
Mel. I guess eventually I am going to have to get over him. I know that I don't want to but I will eventually have to. The
really stupid thing about the night that he broke up with me is that he decided to do something with Brandy. Then after that
he took off saying that it felt wrong and that he should have never done what he had did with her. She got pissed off and
called rape on him. That made me regret ever having them two meet. After about 4 days Brandy turned herself in because she
wouldn't take the lie dector test. They finally called Kenny and told him about that. It was all over no more worrying about
Kenny going to jail. Now theres only a couple of things that I am really scared and worried about. 1. The fact that Kenny's
dad is really sick and that he has "6 months" to live. Kenny told me that if his dad ever dies that he is going to kill himself.
I am so scared because I don't want his dad to die because of the fact that one its his dad, two its his closest parent, and
three I don't want Kenny to kill himself. 2. The fact that Kenny is really sick right now and I don't want it to kill him
and he isn't taking very good care of his self. I don't want to loose him..
After Kenny I dated the guy I cheated on him with for like a day and a half. He asked me out the
day that Kenny broke up with me then like not the next day but the day after that I broke up with him for good because it
just felt wrong going out with the same guy I cheated on Kenny with. It hurt me too much to go out with him.
After that I started going out with Jesse S. That was an interesting relationship. I went out with
him for a month even though in a way it was only like 4 days. He only saw me once a week for 1 month. The last time he saw
me he said that he wasn't ready for a relationship. I think I did something. I don't know what that was. I don't know what
I did. Actually in a way I do know somethings I could have done but I won't go there.
After Jesse I went out with Billy and Kenny again a few times...
After all of that I went out with a guy named Brian R. Barricks. Eew
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